A CraShING STOP

So, YES it has been forever since we have bloged last... so sorry!! However, on our defences LIFE has gotten way, way to crazy for us. As many of you know back in September we heard clearly from God to "SUBMIT" and move to Ireland. In October we found out we were pregnant with our second and beautiful son, Jeremiah. Even with such exciting news we were preparing our budget and prayer letters for Ireland to send out to all of our wonderful family and friends who trust and love the Lord. In February we were given the HORRIBLE news that our Jeremiah will not live very long after birth if he even makes it to that point. Our WORLD came to a crashing STOP!! After many differnt doctor visit's, to two differnt hospitals, we have come to the relization that there is NOTHING we can do but TRUST that GOD IS IN CONTROl; and Praise God we don't have control!! We have also come to relieze that Jeremeiah is not at all a burden, but a blessing. Even though we are preparing ourselves for this STORM, if you will, that is soon to come it is so hard to get through the everyday little storms. No matter how long we will have our beutiful gift from above we will love him and be the best parents he will ever have. Malachi has been so wonderful through all of this and very LOVING!! I would not use the phrase "terrible two's" for him at all. Malachi understands there is a baby in mommy's belly who we all very much love, but he has NO CLUE that his brother will more than likely never come home from the hospital. We can not wait for the moment that Malachi gets to meet his little brother and to see the instant love that he will have for him. For those of you who are wondering how does that play in with Ireland, I will let you know we are still planning on moving but our time line has changed. We know what God has said and we will not let the Devil steal that from us. When we went to that doctor's appointment in February we had no clue our life was about to forever change but it has; we had no clue that on that day we will understand what the phrase, "I am always thinking about it" truly means but we do; We had no clue that we were about to hear the doctor's utter the phrase, "You have choices"... to end or continue the life of your child we ofcourse continued it; we had no clue that we were going to have to face the idea of burying our child in the same week he is birthed; this list could go on. What we knew is that NO MATTER WHAT We WILL Praise The Lord!!!